The big day has finally arrived.
Nine months ago, when we arrived back from our summer holiday, I started preparing for today. I formulated a schedule in my head, with target dates and with the progress that I hoped to make along the journey, all geared for 21 April 2024. It has been an emotional process, with many highs and lows. I have felt incredible joy and happiness, as well as sadness and frustration, and everything in between. There have been times of strong self-belief, confidence and determination, many times of self-doubt and worry, whilst much of the time we have had to juggle the additional commitments around our already hectic and full-on family life. There have been times when the sheer magnitude of the challenge has been in the forefront of my mind, and I wonder whether we have made the right decision, as I have had reservations if the commitment has been the right thing for the whole family.
As I have tackled times of poor physical health, it has taken a toll on my mental health, having to face the uncertainty over my progress and concern over reaching the big day. There have been many times when I have not wanted to get outside because I have been feeling tired and sluggish. Equally, during the times when I have felt in peak physical health, I have felt such buoyancy and resolve. The boost I have gained from the love and support from family and friends through this time has been incredible, and I know that with this, as well as the encouragement from strangers that I meet through the day, I will reach my end goal. I will reach it feeling overwhelmed by the dedication I have given to this life-change, as well as love for my son.
I have had my bag packed for the past week and I hope that in it I have covered most eventualities and needs that I may have. I have been dreaming of this day for years and I just hope that I can get through it in good condition and with an incredibly positive experience.
As I head out this morning, I am filled with optimism and nerves, and I hope that when I close my eyes this evening, I will still be grinning from ear to ear.
And now I'm wondering whether I am talking about running the marathon or having a baby😜!
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